So here we are- the start of a new year. Traditionally a time when we both look back and look forwards.
All of this is personal tonight, so look away now if you'd prefer not to read.
Tradition works for me, so here's a few of my thoughts:
2012 had some good bits to it for me, I enjoyed the Jubilee and the couple of Olympics events I was lucky enough to get to, my lovely daughter did excellently in her GCSEs and is now settled in a very good school for VI form and loving it. Son has a job and is becoming self sufficient (well kind of...).
Best though is perhaps finding a new life here on line, I've made new friends, discovered interesting stuff I didn't know and had some laughs. I can be myself for the first time in many, many years as no one (apart from a trusted few) knows my real ID. It's been a liberation and one I hope to continue.
Now for the bad bits:
My Mother died in September, it was a real shock and quite unexpected, she'd not been well for some time but it was never seen as terminal. A massive heart attack one evening and she was gone. That really hit me hard as we were very close and with my father dying two years ago, that's it now, no more parents. It may sound sentimental and silly but this was the first year in my life I've not had a birthday card from Mum. That hurts.
And 2012 was the year when I finally realised there was nothing worth saving in my marriage.
Now to look forward:
Work has been going downhill for some time now though, too many restructures and redundancies and I'll be looking to move on this year.
On a personal level it's got to be better- 2013 will bring upheaval in my life but I know it will be for the better. I'll find a new job and start making a new life and I do hope some of you'll stay with me as I do.
This year I will be meeting some of my new friends for the first time, I know that will be good, some I won't have the chance to meet but will still hope to one day.
I will try and blog more often because I enjoy it and I like to use words.
I will neither drink nor smoke less, because that's my choice, but I will try to judge less.
I will still post music links because music has always been a major part of my life.
I will still be inappropriate at times too, 'cos why the hell not?
Oh, and perhaps I should also mention that I have now found the most amazing lady! I know she will be a big part of my future and that one day we will be very happy together. it may not happen this year.
It may take longer.
I can wait, because she's really worth it.
Now that's a great place to end this, and thank you if you have read this far.
Next post will be back to some political theme but please forgive my new year reflections.
G
